a girl growing up..

ohh wat a year it has been! I think by far this is the most happening and exciting year of my life. All the worst and most unimaginable things have happened, and i have had to face them and go through them all. But e best things happened this yr too! I give thanx for this yr for i have encountered God's faithfulness in my life, and indeed, i felt e absolute truth of some all too familiar bible verses.. It is an exciting journey, this life of mine=]

ooh haven blogged here for some time already. i think i always start with this line, oops.. i think in these past few months i have increased exponentially in faith and maturity, which is a good thing. i have been happy and feeling blessed esp since i went to micu. so blessed that i want to stay on even though i have been contemplating to leave for the past two yrs. tt is how unexpected life is! anyway, gone are e happy days, at least for now. just found out something and my heart went ping, pang and piang. i was pretty much taken aback, but oh well, life goes on..

if u ask me why i believe in God, why i have faith in Him, it is because He, He has been faithful to me, thru the ups and downs, and hence i believe=] i cannot help but believe.

now tt it is less than one month to my last day in my current geri ward, i feel really she bu de. i really like my elderly pts. they are so cute and they bring laughter into my work like every day. i like turning them to make sure they don get pressure sores, i like making them nice and comfortable, and i really like laughing at their cuteness! ahhahahaha.. i like it when they give me their adorable smile, i like to see their startled expression when i accidentally woke them up to change their diapers (oops!), i like it when they help me to lift their buttocks, and....i can smile just looking at their cute faces. i will really miss my elderly pts and their cuteness TO THE MAX. i cant believe how this 6 months posting has given me more than wat i expected. aft a boring and peaceful 3 months, things started happening. i got into trouble and got lots of unpleasant scoldings, some well-deserved and some not. i saw my weaknesses and got motivated to improve. i learn to kan kai and not bothe...

i am tired of having to bear the stressful nature of being a nurse.. i don like having to dread going to work after my off day cuz i dunno wat to expect at work. i don like tt i have to keep changing teams and having to know e pts all over again.. i don like tt i have to multitask like mad! i don like discharge planning. i don like having to miss breaks when i am already so malnutritioned. i don like to go for a rushed break just so i can fill my stomach w a bit of food. i don like documenting stupid things like PFE, FP and risk for pressure ulcer. i don like being the secretary of the drs and the coordinator of the dr, msw, pt/ot/st, dietitian and u name who. i don like tt my heart was pounding throughout the busy shift today and tt my gastric was acting up and tt even though it seemed tt i didnt miss out anything despite the busyness, i don feel a sense of satisfaction. i don like tt i am so stressed bout the things to follow up tom tt i cant get to sleep tonight. thanx to my bond, ...

ok i haven been blogging for so long i dunno who still comes and read it, excpet xy who thinks tt my life is so feng ping lang jing that i have nothing to write about..aahahaha.. but as she has realised, my life has been v 'exciting'..urhum.. just when i thought i have always been blessed w bosses who r really nice to me even since my temp job days, i am now under the rule of not one, but two bosses whom favour i am not in..let's just say that they have the talent to make someone feel really lousy bout herself.. but hey, aft all the things i kena and the conversations i had w my colleagues, i realised tt i shouldnt allow e two pple up there to make me feel lousy bout myself!! i am not the only who kena things and had negative feelings bout them lor, the whole ward thinks the same! i decided tt's e way they are and they are the ones who should reflect on their poor management skills! GRR.. welcome to the reality of work life! anyway, i have now kan de very kai and is sur...