my mum really knows how to get on pple's nerves.. get out of my way man...grr
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my bro has gone back to NS!! hee.. tt day during dinner, i asked him if he knew his bunk mates already and he said yes.. then i asked issit all medicine pple and he said yes again.. then i exclaimed with envy,"wa issnt it very fun??" then he looked up looking slightly horrified and shook his head hurriedly.. AH HEE HEE.... i was pretty amused at his horrified look..
i think the family of lizards in my house are expanding their territory=/ they used to lurk around in the kitchen the most, sometimes spotting them in the living room as well.. these few days i saw one lurking on the wall along the staircase.. and for the first time, i saw one in my room!!!! eeeeee super grosss.....=/
waaa i had assessment on intravenous administration of meds today and it was overwhelming..=/ i cried at the end cuz the process was so agonising.. there were 10 stations of assessors and we are assigned to go for 2 stations each.. i was the first one at my station.. anyway, i didnt pass and i had to wait for the reassessment as well as my 2nd station.. the wait was agonising enough cuz i waited til almost the end of the whole thing.. at first i was ok with reassessment, but the wait was so long tt i started recalling how i used to be reassessed back in sch, and i kind of dui my sch's face (cuz i think e assessor knows all our background).. then finally i went back to my first assessor, and halfway thru the 2nd attempt she passed me to another assessor to assess cuz she wants a 2nd opinion.. which means actually she didnt want to pass me again.. so the other assessor assessed me everything at one go which is kind of stressful.. and he was a bit impatient and sarcastic also which wa...
to all frenz who are still studying: whoa work politics really do exist.. to working pple who always tell me tt: ya i believe u now.. someone has spoken bad of me behind my back.. something untrue.. i dunno if the person honestly misunderstood the situation, or she really has a bad mouth.. i can understand if pple want to say tt i am slow, skills bad etc.. badmouthing yes, but at least true.. but to say something untrue, whoa something is wrong with ur character leh.. but cuz of such pple, i felt the sweetness and importance of pure friendship as i poured out my grievances to true frenz=]=] thank you=]
yay i managed to watch my fav scene of boys over flowers again! the scene where geum chan di jumped into the pool after saying a long string of stuff.. so cool.. hai although i am having orientation now, i go back to the wards for half a day now and then.. and during this time, i keep meeting pts which are hard to deal with.. in short, they don trust me=/ boo hoo.. i think pts trust me more when i was a student lor.. how can tt be? i was supposed to help one uncle from the bed to the chair, so i happily went and started taking up the drain and urine bag.. then the whole time he keep asking me to ask someone to help me.. he was so insistent tt i had to ask the SN in charge to come..hai.. ay, i haven even touched him yet!!=/ WHO SAYs UNCLES ARE LESS FUSSY?????? i still prefer my ke ai de aunties..
we had a presentation on the various cultures in singapore today.. i was slightly nervous but i put on a professional front=] hee.. learnt something from work wor.. though it is still kind of sian, it feels much better to do a presentation tt does not require journals and referencing! i am going to run tonight!
today me and yy were eating lunch at the houseman canteen when we noticed a pair of tiny twin toddlers in the table beside us.. they are sitting in the toddler chairs and their mum was patiently feeding them.. sitting in between the 2 twins, she turned to the left and fed one strand of kway tiao, and to the right she fed another strand of kway tiao, and finally she fed herself one spoonful also.. left, right, center. left right center. so patient!! and the twins (girls) are so cute!! they have voluptuous chubby cheeks which is not surprising cuz they just eat whatever is fed to them (including vege).. hee.. then they keep looking at us and chuckling happily! yy say they are smiling at us, but i told her they are are actually laughing AT us.. hee.. then at one pt in time the twins suddenly point at each other excitedly and giggled happily..heeheehee so cute!!!!!!
i think my mouth is really suay.. for the past 2 months, my ward is seldom totally full.. so when my sis asked if i can take 10 cases, i said to my preceptor casually, "got 10 cases for me to take meh?" well, suddenly got lor!=/ if my colleague neva help me a bit here and there, i think i will faint.. not forgetting tt time when i commented tt i got no more pts, my colleagues' pt kena a resuscitation! my mouth v powerful wor..hee..
today has the most no of admissions i have ever seen so far! there is one team which has no pts at all, and then admitted 8 pts in the morn! siao siao siao.. and then i happily pricked myself hard when i attempted to jab the insulin for the GIK..hai.. don belittle an insulin needle=/ my finger wouldnt stop bleeding the whole time i tried to jab a new new syringe of insulin!
oh no i really love my ward now.. i finally feel a sense of belonging=]=] i think this ward got the best colleagues! instead of having lazy ENs, i feel the bliss of having responsible ENs (all of them!).. i spent the morn in the ward today and tried to help out with the para, when my ENs came along and jokingly said, "put down the charts!" then they hurriedly took them away from me.. hee.. and at my most lost and helpless moments, there is always someone whom i can turn to for help.. super nice pple..=D how can i bear to leave this ward when i love every bit of it? will it be the same if i return one year later?=/
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oh man i suddenly discover a huge pink ring file in the shelf where all my nursing books are, and i curiously took it out to find tt it's my JC physics notes! and e most bewildering thing is tt it is soooo neat!! see.. all my handwriting was so neat too.. i cant find a page with untidy scribbly handwriting.. i am shocked! i really am! i exclaimed to my mum tt i was so neat.. then she said,'now then u know.. u were neat last time..' i am in a state of disbelief.. wat happened to me now?????
one of the reasons i like surgical ward is tt it is v exciting.. it has so many teams of doctors, like 4 or 5 teams in ortho and another 4 or 5 teams in general surgical, and also ent, uro etc etc.. so there is alot of movement of diff doctors each day coming in and out at random times, and ur team of pts can be in charge by diff teams.. i really like it this way cuz it is not so mundane seeing the same pple each day.. because of this reason, i feel v saddened tt i have to rotate out of my ward in jan next yr=/ and one month of my surgical ward posting is spent in orientation some more! so wasted!
i think my large intestines are controlled by stress levels.. when i had attachments last time, i used to have diarrhea in the morning sometimes.. then aft i started working, the diarrhea changed to constipation=/ however, due to the long weekend, i finally BO large amt of normal stools with minimal effort=D oh no i saw a car tt i like very much.. it is a small hatchback white car--chevrolet spark.. the interior is all black leather (the way i like it), and when i sat in the car seat it felt so snug and cosy! awwwwwww.... i.am.not.going.to.buy.it!=\
i think working in a B class surgical ward increases the chances of meeting pple u know/who know u! cuz all the young, old, men and women come for various surgeries! i was doing dressing for a pt whom i have never seen b4, and he asked me if i was from jy pri! then he said tt he was from the next door class and he recognised me cuz my face neva changed except i neva wear specs now=/ wa lao, pri sch leh!! then today, i met a relief teacher from my jc! i didnt dare to identify myself cuz aft all he only taught me gp for a few days and i don think he'll recognise me.. but my colleague secretly helped me ask if he is a teacher and they chatted abit.. then aft she came and told me tt he recognises my face!! i remember i like him cuz he is interesting (unlike my real gp teacher who is monotonous).. i didnt remember crushing him though, but i felt kind of shy anyway=/ then coincidentally my sn asked me to return property to him! so i happily and shyly went to talk to him=] *blush* anyway,...
i feel the itch to blog today! i officially followed dr's rounds today as the staff nurse in charge (with another staff guiding me of course) and was quite scared cuz the whole team, including the big shots (surgeons) came to review the patients=/ surgeon A is the one who must have a nurse to follow her rounds strictly and my staff nurse was frantically looking for me to follow her rounds.. anyway, i turned up in time, unfortunately=/ surgeon A was reviewing her pt and she asked where is the missy (i was already there).. then it didnt take her long to set her eyes on me.. so she started questioning me, starting from do i know what's the issue with this pt until i gave the solution she wanted.. and i thot the way she spoke was quite fierce=/ well, at least i knew the issue and i eventually guessed wat she wanted=] not a bad feat considering i am quite blur=] anyway, i told my staff nurse and also later on the pm shift nurse tt she was quite fierce, but no one seems to enthusiast...
feel pretty lousy today=/ i thot i enjoyed working life so far since i don really like going for lectures and tutorials.. until today, e loneliness has built up and set in.. one reason is prob cuz yy and i haven been able to meet up for break for the whole week.. and another is i don feel tt i have frenz in the ward.. everyone is very nice and helpful to me, but they are not really frenz.. my ward pple are quite close, and i think they go out with each other sometimes.. tt just makes the loneliness worse.. i finally understand y pple like sch more.. cuz of the great company of frenz..some more can talk and laugh during lectures and breaktimes..in fact, almost anytime anywhere.. it is quite hard to do tt now.. anyway, either i try harder to make frenz or i concentrate on doing my job well, cuz i cant do both at the same time (i cannot multitask).. and of course doing my job well is the priority rite.. it is working life after all=/ i kind of wish some of them would ask me out so tt we c...
i don feel like going out already cuz i feel very tired aft one to two hours into the outings and my mind goes to dreamland.. at the rate i am going, i'll become a hermit cuz i am not tt close to my colleagues yet, and i don have the energy to go out w frenz..boohoo..i don care i just want to sleep.. i really think tt it is easier to work in a surgical ward.. all the management is pretty standard and i get to clean nice-looking wounds.. i don even have to speak dialect so far cuz most patients are relatively young! and i have the luxury of explaining to the patients wat medications they are taking (i finally learnt to check up medications i dunno on the spot).. the medication list is longer than i thought after all, so i still get to learn new medications=]then i can also do simple pre-op counselling, nice=] anyway, my skills are terrible! i happily grabbed the rare chance to do urinary catherisation and i missed out so many steps! and as usual i will always go into the wrong hole...
this week passed quite fast.. so does the weekend=/ anyway, a very nice uncle patient commented tt i look like a japanese! HEE HEE HEE..=] tt's a nice change from the usual comments.. but, one hour later, this patient diagonally opposite him asked if i am from china=/ diao.. hmm. nvm, "hear only the good stuff"=D the kind yy drove me home yesterday from suntec city and i got to ride on her motorbike! wa very scary! i held on to the bars for dear life throughout the whole journey.. after an agonising ten minutes, i realised to my horror tt we are back at suntec city=/ (cuz yy took the wrong road) hee..the peak of the ride was when we almost drove into a taxi which stopped at the sideroad=/ just when i screamed 'woahhhh...!' in my mind and shut my eyes, yy managed to brake and swerved wobbly away from the taxi.. hee super jing xian la! wa lao i have to wear the uniform for the next two days of orientation.. i look like an iron board lor=/ so toot!
hey i am finally blogging again! i survived the first week of working life=] my ward is actually a very pleasant place.. the staff are all nice and helpful, and it is an elective surgical ward so patients are mostly quite well too.. i enjoy doing admissions cuz it is so much easier to do the assessment la! hee.. i like my preceptor too cuz she really guides me, teaches me and asks me questions=] ooh, the most impt thing is, we are wearing scrubs now! woohooOO! tt is a very very big incentive cuz i look super toot in the uniform=/ and somemore we change in and out of the scrubs in the ward, so we don have to bring them back to wash=D and if i am going out aft work, i don have to bring an extra set of clothes lor.. i like i like! but i think this scrubs thing is only for the h1n1 period=/ if they change back to uniform, i'll be quite upset=/ anyway, there are students attached to my ward, and this particular gal has alot of comments bout my nose.. she says it is very sharp, in fact, ...
e weight tt i happily gained from taiwan has mysteriously disappeared.. boo hoo.. anyway, my mp3 chu mai me when i was on the plane! just when i need it most.. hai.. anyway, i found tt it is working again=] i concluded tt the air pressure in the plane caused my battery to be loosened from the contact pt cuz i keep having to press in the battery.. major changes in my life: 1. i am becoming a working adult! 2. i am quitting my church choir=/ i hate the fact tt i still cant have much savings despite my increase in salary.. when i worked out my sums, i was really very sad=/ i suppose i'll have enough to save for travelling each year, but it will be gone in the end.. cant i just enjoy the luxury of having more than enough money at hand?=/
AH!! my family doc is so nice! he gave me a discount on my flu vaccine jab lor=D so happy... if i am not wrong, i think it is all thanx to my bro.. didnt we learnt in e med sociology module something bout docs charging u less if ur immediate family is a fellow doc? something like tt rite? heehee.. or maybe cuz i am a graduating nurse? hai, but i think my bro's mian zi bigger though..hee..
i shall name this entry--"the art of cooking an egg" it took me 4 tries to cook a half boiled egg..can u believe it?? ok this is how i do it and fail.. first i heat some water til e water is boiling vigorously.. then, i pour e water and put e egg into a cup and covered e cup with a lid.. finally, i set my timer to 8 mins.. sounds nothing wrong rite?? wrong!! for 3 times, my egg is hardly even cooked at all.. by rite e egg should be completely hardboiled by 8 mins!! e thing tt is very wrong is tt e amt of water in e cup is too little, even though e egg is covered by the water! my mum used a maggi mee size pot and it works! cool hor?=] hai shi lao ma li hai!
yay i finished boys over flowers=D it is very very very very nice..love it love it.. i think e cast is very nai kan! esp gu jun pyo and guem jan di.. gu jun pyo just gets more and more attractive..=] then geum jan di has this really sweet smile while gu jun pyo has a comically cute grin.. i watched e behind e scenes and it is nice to see tt they are all quite cute and friendly in real life too.. i thot gu jun pyo's smile was fake in e show cuz it is a bit too comical, but i realised his real smile is like tt.. oops.. hee.. ok i better get over all these and get back to reality.. (where is my gu jun pyo??)
2 of my patients have become good frenz! and they are totally in diff leagues lor.. one of them is a 80 yr old auntie, and e other is a 30+ philippino lady (not maid hor).. but both of them speak very nice fluent english and i think tt's y they can communicate so well to each other! then one day e 80 yr old auntie went for a scan, and e philippino lady waited for her to come back so tt they can eat their lunch together.. so sweet!!=] anyway, i really like my patients this posting.. some are cute, and some are really very nice and appreciative.. as usual, one auntie won e cutest award.. she will suddenly flash her killer cute grin and then i will always laugh.. she has been offering me her food e whole week, but yesterday she was specially insistent tt i take her food.. first tactic--she said in chinese,"if u still don eat, i am going to get angry hor.." and she kind of pouted a bit.. second tactic--she attempted to hook fingers with me to make me promise to take her food!...
my alert, oriented, polite and likeable auntie who talks to me in eloquent english and says thank you has turned overnight into a violent and rude auntie who pinches, kicks and spits! wow i couldnt believe one day could make such a big change! acute delirium! from the first day i saw her, she keeps confusing me cuz her image keeps changing.. on the first day i saw her, she wasnt wearing any glasses.. when i went to work e second day, she had her long-sighted glasses on.. i took a look at her and thot, "wa change pt so fast ah.." when i served her medication, i thot e name was kind of familiar.. ay, tt's e name of my pt yesterday wat.. how come her IMR is still here?? then i looked at my pt and looked, and looked again.. and finally realised she is e same pt!! oh man!! two days later, i reported for work and found a pt's bed being parked just beside e nurses station, with all 4 limbs restrained.. i looked at her and thot, hai another confused pt.. then i checked on my ...
i am so HAPPY!!=D jillian came down and talk to me, yy and my preceptor tog, and apparently they were quite pleased with our performance.. so wat happened was me and yy asked whether we can end our attachment earlier.. meaning like maybe today? well tt didnt work.. however, jillian compromised and said we can work half day on friday.. and then, to our enormous surprise, our preceptor voluntarily spoke up for us, saying we have been staying over time during our pm shifts until 10 plus.. we totally didnt expect her to speak up for us! so touched! me and yy were smiling from e bottom of our hearts.. anyway, so jillian gave us e whole fri off=] then aft she left, our preceptor says we don have to take cases anymore if we don want to, but we can just help ard..hee..so nice of her! actually, i think our preceptor would not have minded if we end our attachment like today.. in fact, she was e one who help us voice it out to jillian lor.. oh well.. 3 more days=]
ok a quicky blog before i sleep.. i have been watching boys over flower! not bad so far=] i like jun pyo..hee.. he looks like dao ming si and he acts like him too.. i like to see his jealous face..hehe.. e fact tt i still like such bad boys proves tt i haven matured at all?=/ going to take 6 cases from tom onwards.. hope my team's staff nurse is nice and e changes are not complicated.. i am now comtemplating to stay in this ward or not.. pros: 1. the staff are nice. 2. i am used to e way things work. 3. there are more chinese nurses now. and e new grads are quite nice too. cons: 1. i haven seen a single person do wound dressing properly at all..but actually, tt is none of my business as long i do it properly rite.. 2. it is a busy ward, but i prefer tt to a slack ward. conclusion: how come e pros like more than e cons????? this is weird.. but something is holding me back from staying but i am not too sure what it is.. hmm.. see la, if there is no extension, i wouldnt be in a dilemm...
yay look forward to emily's wedding.. hmm have to think of wat dress to wear le! but it is only those few tt i always wear anyway..hee.. i also want to jia ren!! guess one of these days i would have to post a column in e newspapers to zeng hun (invitations for husbands-to-be).. anyone want to share e column w me?=] we can splilt e advertisement cost!=D hee.. but really, i cant imagine myself in a r/s.. tt thought is just too unrealistic.. hai..
today 13-yr old gal was admitted during e nite shift.. when i reached my ward for a morning shift, a doc was telling her, "don worry u are very safe here.. u are very near e nurses' station, so anything just scream ok?" heehee.. tt was quite funny.. and i thot tt doc was very sweet to e kid=]=] i was quite disoriented yesterday when i took cases yesterday..partly cuz e nurse did e changes despite knowing i am taking cases=/ and i really don like taking over halfway cuz i dunno wat is done or not.. and i also don like passing over a report saying things tt are not done by me cuz i wont know e details.. furthermore, during serving medication, she suddenly took out e medications for me cuz i think she thinks i am too slow.. wa lao spoil everything lor.. working with her is like a precious day wasted la!=/ anyway, i happily took cases today and was actually quite satisfied with myself=] all thanx to my staff nurse who is very nice and capable=] oh man i think i am liking e s...
ah i don dare to step into tampines one! everytime i walk one round i sure see something nice! is tt good or bad? good when u have money and bad when u are penniless! meeting up w ah gerk, xy and mq at TCC tom to discuss our taiwan trip! i love TCC=]=] i always look at e menu and everything looks so pretty and delicious, esp the many diff kinds of drinks=D
today a bad news hit once again.. i thot tt our attachment will be cancelled cuz of e swine flu, but it was not.. in fact, it became worse cuz we have to do our attachment in e skills lab..! pls just send me back to cgh, i'll rather risk getting swine flu=/ alot of things happened today.. anyway, i am too tired to go thru e whole process again.. in short, our 3 sources of hope to cancel our attachment were kind of dashed.. me and yy fought hard to stand up for ourselves lor.. J said tt if we cannot go back to cgh for attachment by next week, we have to do it in sch.. either tt, or we cannot graduate lor.. like tt say, it simply means we have no choice.. so as usual, we lose la.. for a few moments, me and yy were quite speechless as we tried to hold back our tears.. then yy giggled as she suddenly thot tt this scenario seemed to have happened before.. hee.. then i told myself not to cry cuz i have not yet finished wat i wanted to say.. we were not going to leave her room just like t...
i learnt a driving tip today.. my dad's car was crawling up the slope even though i was already stepping on e pedal fully.. then my bro told me to release everything and then step e pedal again hard.. and it works! even though i complained bout e car crawling like 3 times before my bro finally told me this tip.. hai..
went for a church wedding followed by e dinner yesterday.. it was quite a simple wedding considering tt e bride only has 2 gowns--e wedding gown and a lovely rouge coloured dress to change into.. and e bride gave e groom a surprise during e wedding! e MCs told both e bride and groom to blindfold themselves, but actually e bride is preparing to play e piano and sing a song for him=] and during e song, e groom was standing there touched and dropping tears! if i ever get married, i think i want to play e piano and sing a song for my husband too..hee.. but first, i have to pick a song (i dunno any nice eng songs), practise my not v good piano skills (see y i quit learning piano), practise singing with my not v loud voice, and then combined e two tog.. oh man, so hard, maybe i wont do it aft all..hee!
today was quite ok until e evaluation and debrief by my CI at e end.. i even did a wound dressing which i was quite satisfied with (finally!)=] anyway, my CI made a comment which i disagree with and kind of dampened my day (or night).. she said there are 3 kinds of students.. some starts slow and then suddenly they wake up and improve.. others are proactive from e start, and they either maintain or they improve further.. so she said tt i am proactive from e start, but it looks like there is a slim chance of me improving anymore in e next 2 weeks.. WA LAO AY! according to e way she said it, i take it tt it is not complimentary lor!=/ tt means she is not complimenting me for being proactive, but trying to say tt i have reached my full potential.. i am going to prove her wrong..hmph! and then she went thru e scat with me and some are not achieved when actually i feel i got achieve.. i think her expectations are too high cuz: 1) i am bonded to cgh 2) jillian specifically read out to her wa...
i came home feeling unhappy today.. i took 4 cases including 2 new admissions and it was very messy lor.. so many changes and i dunno how to do.. then my SN did some for me, so when i passed report i was not even sure wat had been done or not.. and i could not find my CI for a period of time lor.. bu shuang lor.. i cant find e satisfaction tt i had in my yr 2 postings.. issit cuz our roles are different and i could provide more patient care then? or issit e hospital? i am in a dilemma.. i dunno if i want to stay in e same ward.. it is just going to be exactly e same after i graduate lor.. i like e busyness and challenges, but i don like e lack of guidance and their bad practices=/ on e positive side, i am glad tt i went to ttsh first.. at least i can identify which are e right and wrong practices!
e ADON (i think) of cgh arranged to meet up with us today and she is quite nice=] apparently, she wanted to ask bout our areas of interest, which we only know about 10 mins before she came in.. but, to my pleasant surprise, she also asked wat we thought of cgh.. so yy started by saying it is diff from 2 yrs ago etc.. then i said it is very different from ttsh where i spent alot of time in.. so she probed further and i said alot of practises are different.. and suddenly she said,"i heard e documentation there is good rite?!" so i took e opportunity to talk bout APIE..=D but i didnt really express my full displeasure as i don want to de cun jing chi.. then she asked wat else is good so i also mentioned tt i feel tt ttsh is more systemic etc.. i think i was trying to be as tactful as i can, and she said, "aiyah don need to be so polite one, just say!" hee.. she actually jot down e pts lor=]
shit yy and i have to extend my TtoP by 2 weeks aft exams! we are super upset about it.. J and my CI keep saying tt this doesnt mean we fail, it just means we need more time to strengthen ourselves, so don treat this as a failure.. well, we know tt.. we are not treating it as a failure lor.. e main pt is, it doesnt change e fact tt we have to shorten our holidays! they don get e main pt. and our dear J broke this horrifying news so suddenly and without warning tt i broke into tears.. it was really quite unexpected.. i went into e conference room to meet her, and after like hardly 2 sentences of conversation, she says tt they have decided to extend out TtoP by 2 weeks in a matter-of-fact manner.. and i have decided she loves breaking bad news cuz she looked quite happy.. and she said herself tt we can go ahead and call her names behind her back.. so i shall call her si J (SJI).. wa a nice change for SPI=] she also asked how i feel bout it.. hello, don ask if u don care lor.. there is c...
yay i like my team's staff nurse today.. she is good and teaches comprehensively=] finally found a role model! i took 4 cases today and was super tired.. i went for break after passing report and could hardly eat at my normal speed cuz my brain is going into e sleep mode le.. my patients' medicines were interesting lor.. don guai guai stick to oral medicines one.. got oral, top, intranasal, eyedrop, neb.. almost every route i can think of la.. want to confuse me issit.. hee.. then i always neva get to follow dr's rounds in time cuz i am still serving my IV antibiotics.. slow la=/ anyway, i have come up with 2 must-haves in my pocket--alcohol swabs and combi stoppers! save myself many trips.. ooh some gossip.. i realise today tt my ward has a doc/nurse husband and wife! hee.. where is my doc husband-to-be?? hee..
yay finally gtg meet up w gerk and mq!=] xy don want to come cuz she wants to watch her "ai".. hai.. i think my ward practices are not v good.. ttsh's practices are really good, like high up there lor(to me la)..and my ward's like -_-.. i am not even trying compare lor, on its own it is already cmi=/ i have seen quite a few times when they neva swab e plug and drip line before connecting..maybe should ask whether i saw them swabbing before=/ this is quite bad practice, isnt it? not like my expectations too high rite.. i would rather be in a ward w super good practices and be scolded until i do things rite and meet their expectations.. at least then i know i am learning to be a good nurse..
e dvd player which was in my room 2 days ago is now gone.. i cant watch dvd or play cd because it is spoilt, but i can still listen to e fm radio.. so when my mum asked me to give it away, i said i still want it cuz e radio works.. and then i came back yesterday to find it gone.. i am not even tt upset bout e dvd player being gone, but i am pissed off w my mum for giving it away despite me saying specifically tt i still want it.. unbelievable rite? no, cuz it is my mum we are talking bout.. and though she knows i am pissed off, she'll just act like nothing is wrong which further pisses me off.. which is y things like tt happen again and again for my whole life.. i feel like locking up my room w my mini inside (in case she gives him away like she gave my previous 2 dogs away=/).. if she does tt, i am seriously going to flare up without trying to control myself.. anyway, she bought a conditioner for mini which cost 30 plus dollars.. i find it a waste of money cuz my dog is a chihuahu...
now i feel v bad bout e 'evil patient' cuz i think i was really very stupid and dense to not get wat she was trying to tell me..=/ and tt's y she got so frustrated and over-reacted.. i attended to her before and she was alrite until i was being dense today=/ but i couldnt help being dense.. i made a whole lot of mistakes today also.. like calling e wrong ambulance.. ok don worry this is not as bad as it sounds ya.. hee.. i think too stressed taking 4 cases with 3 discharges today.. but then again, i am always blur=/ i need to see a neuro doc......
this is a horrible day=[ i got scolded by this really evil patient in e isolation room.. she was quite ok until i didnt understand wat she wanted.. she prob had a difficulty talking, so she pointed at stuff.. when i tried to confirm with her whether wat she wanted is correct, she neva even shake or nod her head lor.. and all of a sudden, she flew into a rage and started scolding me stupid in a undescribably RUDE and MEAN way! she was practically spitting out her words! i was quite pissed off and i said sternly,"wat is it u want?" when i finally understood and did wat she wanted, i apologised and said, 'sorry ah i didnt understand just now.." and she continued scolding me stupid lor! so wat if i was quite dense at e moment? it definitely didnt call for such plain rudeness! and i apologised ok! i went to e sink and started tearing.. then when i took e tissue to wipe my tears before leaving e room, she scolded again, "cry cry cry! cry wat cry! stupid!" SUPER r...
wow i simply have to blog bout my day before i sleep.. it was kind of exciting and eventful! at bout 2 plus in e afternoon, i was already quite free and thinking of how to spend e rest of my afternoon shift, when this strange alarm rang.. it took me one sec to see e word code blue, and one more sec to react.. react as in going "oh my goodness!" in my head.. hee not v helpful hor=p anyway, of course e nurses' reaction was super fast, they kind of jumped out of their seats e moment e code blue was sounded! and then e whole large bunch of us--morn and afternoon nurses plus one student nurse, who is not v significant, but nevertheless part of e bunch, hee, followed e resus trolley into e cubicle! it was kind of drama cuz since when u see a large bunch of nurses walk so fast tog before! hee.. at first i only peeped thru e curtains, and then e super nice sister said," u are yr 3 already, better go in and see" and she hushed me into e scene! yay she rocks!=D then i had...
i think working on a weekend is quite nice cuz e atmosphere is quite relaxed.. i think it is also becuz i didnt have to give any iv antibiotics today!=] i assisted a HO/MO in drawing blood today.. then i helped him prepare n/s for flushing ended up spilling it on his arm!=/ long story.. but he is super nice about it.. he even thanked me for helping him even though i didnt help him much and yue bang yue mang..hee.. see, so nice lor=] i think nice docs leave a very good impression on nurses..hee.. something hilarious happened today also.. i called a nursing home to arrange transport to for discharge.. so e nurse there say she'll ask e ambulance and call me back.. so firstly, when she called back, my staff nurse picked up e call and said,"patricia??" then she looked v blank and almost wanted to say there is no patricia here before i rushed to e phone.. hee.. aft tt, e NH nurse told us tt e ambulance is not available today (though we already confirmed earlier).. u know y?? he...
i am v suai and heng today.. i completely did not hear my alarm and i woke up at 6.30.. yup mei cuo, 6.30.. and guess wat time i reached my ward? 3 mins before 7am=D heeheehee.. e bliss of staying near ur workplace! and then i took a nap after work, and missed e alarm again.. i think i need 2 alarm clocks=/ anyway, my attempt to change my sunday to an off day failed despite me explaining how if we are allowed to work 5 days if our preceptor works 5 days.. long story.. =/
ok quite a hectic day.. i had to inform e docs about a very high hypocount today.. so i went into e doc's room feeling quite scared.. e 2 docs were discussing bout a case in front of e com, so i waited for them to turn to me.. but they neva quite did=/ so i proceeded to call "erm doc.." before they both turn to me.. i was standing quite obviously behind them and holding a case note (they know i am there), and they didnt turn to ask wat's e matter lor.. hai.. they think i stand behind just to eavesdrop meh? anyway, they r actually quite fine la.. hai.. i don like having to inform docs bout things.. i'm scared tt i'll fumble which i almost did! and before i stop lamenting, one last thing tt i have to say.. i don like APIE. my report writing basically goes like this: my CI say and i write.. kind of frustrating tt i cant do my own report.. and my passing report is very messy also.. i have trouble reading e nursing organiser cuz e lines are so thin (for wat?!) and ...
ha i am alrite w my ward and hospital after all! looks like adaptation and attitude are really important yo.. and kui i say it is not a matter of adaptation.. oops.. so paiseh now..my attitude now: i am not going to think bout my fav hospital for 2 yrs=] after almost one year of probation in my church choir, i am finally confirmed! i thot this day will neva come, but it came..woohoo.. i have one day off on good friday for this week, and i wonder if i should boldy ask for another day off on sunday.. cuz my preceptor is a CI and she doesnt work on sunday anyway.. hmmm.. actually jillian say we follow our preceptor's roster, if 5 days then 5 days, 6 days then 6 days rite? our CI works mon to fri, but we work 6 days lor..hai.. i think e reason was cuz 4 weeks was already very short=/ ok fine, but i still think we should have 2 separate off days for PH and DO!
i was using my bro's laptop when he came back from night duty.. so i asked him about my ward and he say e ward is not bad.. then i asked oh u mean e doctors? then he say e nurses also.. they are e most competent ones.. wow, when i heard tt i was quite surprised cuz as far as i know, most of e nurses are quite junior.. ok, his comment really made me feel much better=]=]
after 6 days of posting, firstly i have become disoriented to day.. i keep forgetting wat day is it! and secondly, to my great horror, e hospital (u know where) i am in is COMPLETELY different from ttsh!!!!! 1. ttsh: iv drips are primed and prepared in e treatment room, so all u do is swab and connect at e pt's bedside. (i dunno bout IV antibiotics, but i guess those are prepared in e treatment room too) also, they don use stoppers. here: i have to stuff e IV antibiotics, syringe and needle and N/S for flushing, swabs, e white and yellow stoppers and dunno wat into e kidney dish, which is really messy and crowded, and take them to e pt's bedside! at least we can take things one by one in e treatment room.. like tt very hard to remember to take everything needed.. somemore, they don use burettes for all antibiotics lor. it is a bit complicated. first they connect e bottle of powder into a 100ml pack of N/S, then they squeeze e NS into e bottle, dissolve, and squeeze back into e...
i am FOG (Full Of Grouses) this week.. hee.. i think i should record down e 4 things i don like bout my hospital (as written in my last post) and turn it into why i like ttsh, and then present them during my interview when i apply for a job there 2 years later.. good idea?=] heehee.. anyway, this pt was REALLY testing my patience today.. she pressed for e call bell and asked to change her pampers.. so i said, ok wait a while ah.. then i hurriedly went to e nurses station to write my report cuz it is almost end of shift.. one sec after i reached there, she pressed e call bell again.. so i went to her and asked her what she wants.. so she wants to change her pampers.. so i told her i am busy and i will come back in awhile.. and back i went to write my report.. one sec later, she presses e call bell again!! pls note tt e nurses station is only rite beside her cubicle.. and guess wat? tt happened like 5 times?! e last time i went in, i had to mask my irritation and say as nicely as i could...
boo hoo.. got a small telling off from my CI today=[ wat i did was to transcribe e vital signs from a paper to e charts, cuz i didnt bring my red pen.. but i told her i did bring e charts along to check against e pt's baseline.. then e CI said tt still there will be a risk of transcribing wrongly.. and she said she can actually mark me down for pt safety cuz she already told us earlier not to transcribe vital signs.. but if i didnt remember wrongly, e only rationale she gave was tt we need to check against e baseline, so it didnt occur to me bout e risk of transcribing wrongly wat.. i feel like she thinks i am being defiant on purpose lor.. but i didnt want to argue further w her.. mark down, mark down lor.. wa lao. see la, reason no.1 why i like ttsh is tt everything is in black pen.. i feel like having to use a red ink is abit extra.. and have to keep changing pen to chart down.. and reason no. 2, cgh clinical charts has e time headings already printed, ie 8, 2, 8, or something l...
for those who failed their osces, i hope this brings comfort to u cuz i have to retake 4 skills! jillian came down to cgh and went thru e comments with each of us.. and i find sandra's comments bout my wound dressing quite hilarious.. "asked for pain score but did not respond to pt's answer.." "gauze and tape were left stuck to pyjamas trousers.." hee! tt's interesting=D and then jillian said tt we have to practise each skill 5 times at e skills lab.. so i asked, "erm does tt mean i have to practise 20 times cuz i failed 4 of them....? and she happily replied, "oh yes!" and then audrey started giggling..wa lao..hee.. oh well there goes my off daysss..
yay came back from JJ's concert! this super lucky gal got picked to sit beside him while he played e piano and sang "baby"!! AH! and i mean rite beside him, like almost touching kind of close!! and then halfway thru e song he put his hands ard her and let her sing a line or two! oh man it was a really really sweet scene.. e gal was sitting beside him and smiling like a xing fu de xiao nu ren e whole time.. heart melt lo...wa lao y i buy e $78 tix! zhen shi de.. hee.. ooh i got a haircut at e tiong bahru jantzen and i'm quite pleased w e shampoo guy and e hairdresser.. first, e shampoo guy, who has long straight hair and trimmed eyebrows, ur-hum, massaged my head and neck really nice.. quite a long massage somemore.. then, e hairdresser really seems to know exactly wat i want.. which is quite rare cuz it is hard to describe a short hairstyle.. i told him all my criteria and he actually fulfiled all of them! unlike some who will cut too short or too many layers etc.. an...
wa lao.. just now i was preparing to do wound dressing for this pt, then he has no confidence in me lor.. he asked me if i am a trainee and if i can do it or not.. then he read my name tag--nus=/ i don think i looked scared wat.. and then e nurse came in and asked me to wear gloves which i kind of disagree cuz i think my hands (after washing) are cleaner than the gloves.. anyway, i shun bian asked her to help me pour more solution, and then e pt say aiyoh like tt he even more scared.. HAI.. i remember there was one attachment in ttsh B1 ward where all the patients and their family were very nice..hope i get to work in such a ward again! but actually i would rather e nurses are nice than e patients are nice.. aft all, pts come and go.. and now while i am blogging i can smell my super smelly feet=/ ewwww.. hao chou ah!! oh there is a doc who always look very happy and bubbly and e nurses call him e sunshine doc! hee..he seem to have this perpetual boyish smile on his face.. though he is ...
hmm i thot A&E is somewhere which is kind of heartless cuz everyone just wants to stabilise e pts but don really care bout how they r feeling or whether they r scared.. but i realise it is actually a very good place to show some care for e pts since they can be quite vulnerable, esp if they r feeling horrible.. not too bad aft all=] there are 2 new nurses in A&E and both said tt they didnt choose it as their first choice but they landed up there anyway=/ one of them chose geron some more! big diff leh.. if they post me to A&E, i think i'll give them a forced feeble smile and firmly ask for a transfer..heehee.. anyway, e medical students there r quite nice and friendly.. got company lo.. i think they got alot of chance to practise drawing blood in A&E.. which means if touch wood we get admitted there, hmmm..let's hope they have had lots of practise already! hee..
ooh i almost forgot to mention.. yy and i were side by side in e triage rooms.. then she whispered to me,"actually ah, e docs here so-so la, but e pts r quite good-looking!" and then i whispered back,"ya ya.. then got e police and scdf also not bad.." heehee.. so u know where part of e excitment comes from la.....=D
woah my 2nd day at A&E was really exciting wor.. e day started off w a bloody resuscitation, followed by a woman who attempted suicide by cutting both her wrists, and then by chancing upon my relative in e triage! when i first stepped into e resus room today, there was already a resuscitation going on! this is my first time seeing a resus! i was quite impressed w e autopulse thing lor! e waveforms looked so perfect tt i don feel like asking to do e CPR.. hee..anyway, i stood by e side of e entrance to watch e resus, and e most obvious thing i could see is tt e air viva is quite bloody.. not e most pleasant thing to see first thing in e morn i must say! hee.. and i can hear e pt coughing up blood now and then.. anyway, e doc told us tt they resus her for 45 mins cuz she is only in her early 20s, but she didnt make in e end.. and then a nurse commented tt she looks like she just gave birth, cuz she has new stretch marks on her lower abdomen.. and this pt is a foreigner some more.. sa...
yay osce is over.. i am pretty sure i am either fail or borderline pass.. hai.. disappointed at my performance.. i think i kind of rush thru every step, tt's y i finish so fast.. me and cynthia almost always come out of our station first lor! hee.. anyway it is over.. pls let me get a borderline pass! i don want to travel all e way from cgh back to nus! wa lao i just got 3 mosquito bites on my legs just by sitting in my room.. si wen zi.. oh ya i finally remembered to check my management test results.. i cant even remember whether it was education or management at first..=/ anyway, i am quite pleased w my results=] i have neva felt this sense of satisfaction in my studies for a long time!=] bought my one and final item at e nus science bazaar today.. ripples slippers @ 2 for 9.90! good buy lor=] even if don like e patterns can also just buy to wear downstairs, since i have to walk my dog every day anyway.. hee.. nus bazzar brightened up my sch life!!=] and burnt tiny holes in my po...
i am so dead.. i have osces tom and i cant fall asleep.. anyway, yesterday i met this annoying salesman whom i think is selling some savings plan.. i said "i think" cuz he neva really got to his pt.. e first thing he said to me was, "hi r u from nus nursing?" apparently he met some nursing pple on previous occasions i guess.. and then he went on to talk bout so u know who and who from nursing? and then u know who and who from vj? and he went on to my sec sch who he doesnt know anyone.. hah! finally, since he neva got to his pt, i said as politely as i possibly could, "erm are u selling some savings plan? cuz i am not interested." and he said a couple of sentences bout it BEFORE going back to so u know who and who? seriously, it is really annoying and out of pt.. so i started walking away and he still didnt stop talking! so i said, "sorry i have to go.. BYEBYE!" hehe.. neva knew i could be so assertive?=] i am already patient enough with him to li...
i went to read up on fleet enema and came across something interesting.. to my pleasant surprise, there are 7 types of shit! neva knew this rite? hee hee.. type 1 is basically e most constipated and e shit comes out small hard and round, and type 7 is completely liquid form.. then there is e shit tt comes out in a long sausage form w either a rocky texture or with cracks; and then there is e diarrhea tt comes out fluffy.. and i have seen my own faeces come out in ALL e forms before!! cool hor...heehee.. e doc came w us for home visits today.. she is really nice and i like her alot! she will ask questions to see if i learnt anything and also teach me stuff.. one question she asked was, "y do we need to visit this pt?" and much to my delight, i could answer her=]=] i neva throw our sch's face wor..hee.. but i haven mentioned there are other questions which i cannot answer.. oops.. however, whenever i dunno e answer, she will guide me step by step to e answer.. and instead o...
i watched campus superstar yesterday, and this gal from AHS sang her song very beautifully.. not kidding, she sang very well and it was very nice to hear! i think she sang "dear friend" or something like tt.. repeat telecast on sun 4.30 or 5.30 i think.. go listen ok!=] and then today i watched e papa dang jia..it is also very nice to watch! hee.. e first episode featured lin ming lun and lin yi yun's family.. they r like a perfect family la.. they have 2 very cuuute kids and they really know how to teach their children lor.. impressed.. anyway, last day of attachment tom.. for once in my 3 yrs of nursing, i am starting to have doubts bout how long i can stay in nursing.. i haven even started working and i feel a bit exhausted.. i used to think i'll be in nursing for a long long time, maybe til i retire.. but perhaps not aft all.. but i do know i'll be in nursing for at least 2 yrs, and tt's in cgh! ah i am quite fearful of graduating and all this fear and str...
hai i am not looking forward to HCA posting tom.. i found out on e first day tt my preceptor is a vegetarian.. and i followed watever she ordered for lunch cuz i am afraid she'll be offended if i buy meaty foods.. hai.. but i gave up on e second day, cuz i figured tt it is even weirder if i keep copying wat she eats rite! hee.. i wonder if there is something wrong w my body.. i felt so unwell and tired today, and true enough, when i felt my pulse, it was quite weak..e chinese medicine works at times and doesnt at other times..=/ e times it work, i can really feel a significant diff in my energy level.. since i have been thru both weak and strong, i must say tt i think someone who has a naturally healthy and strong body is very blessed indeed..
just now, i went to see my tcm doc which is located on e other side of tampines.. so i boarded one of e few buses tt goes there.. but to my bewilderment, it neva reached e bus-stop!! wo de tian ah.. though i admit i was not paying full attention to where e bus was going, but i was at least aware of e environment wat.. so, did i miss e bus stop, or does e bus even go there? i dunno!! anyway, i ened up at e bus stop opp where i boarded e bus lor.. diao.. e bus driver must be thinking i love to take buses for fun la..=/ i think i am losing my way more and more often..howhowhow?? anyway, i saw e pretty ACJC gal from campus superstar!! i think she really looks like e HPB director.. go check her out.. i feel like asking her if her mum works in HPB.. hee..
wonder y i am blogging in e wees of e night? insomnia? nope!!=] i reached home at 7pm after my HCA posting, changed and went into bed thinking i can wake up later and finally get to watch e yi qie wan mei2.. and then when i opened my eyes, it was 3 am!! i am veryveryvery tired.. case study+attachment is not a good combination at all!=/ i just want to sleep in my preceptor's car! anyway, i shall attempt to talk more to e pts next week.. so tired tt i just think of going home during my attachment.. so bad hor=/ anyway, i feel tired again.. so nite!!
busy is my life now.. i cant even find a time slot to go to e gym.. and as usual, i haven done my case study=/ since when am i not last min rite.. i like seeing those pple on msn who r prob doing the case study also=] my mental companions!! hehehehe.. i wanto dye my hair, no time. i want to cut my hair, no time (and money). i wanto go gym, no time. i wanto go out, also no time. sha le wo ba!!!! byebye i go do my case study..
i really have to blog this.. i made a huge dicovery today.. i realised tt someone whom i have a tiny crush on, is already a father of THREE!!!!! wo de tian ah..... since when did my judgement become so bad?=/ i think e pple i crush are quite highly sought after, which means i got good taste=]=], and which also means i should not even waste my time since e younger ones r prob attached and e older ones married..=/=/=/ anyway, if i don find someone by 30yrs old, every guy i meet next time will be a father le=/ boohoohoo.. i want to employ a private mei2 po2!!!!!!
my sassy girl is very very nice=D i cant believe i watch from e last few episodes and got addicted to it! e guy and gal super charismatic and nai kan lor.. hee.. both got their own style and they acted so well=] although i cant help feeling tt e gal's double eyelids are fake..oops! but even if they r fake, e charisma cant be faked out one..=] ah i haven liked a korean show for very long leh! hee.. ever since my fav Full House and one show which i forgot e name..hee.. practising e skills are killing alot of limited my brain cells.. and i keep forgetting this and tt detail everytime i do a skill=/ i hope e cgh examiner doesnt feedback anything bad to e hospital lor! my future in nursing officially starts on 20 march..heehee..
arhh my doggie pooed so much today..=/ must be cuz he dint poo for one day.. he pooed so much tt i used up my toilet paper and had to scoop up his soft poopoo with leaves twice.. and then he seemed to smell something really interesting and refused to move away.. which means i have to hold e leaves in my hand while trying to drag him away=/ and he was very stubborn lor! how frustrating.. y cant he just happily walk on.. if he doesnt stop every few steps to sniff at dunno wat i'll be happy to bring him for a longer walk.. but i don think this will get into his tiny doggie head..hai.. i finished my objectives awhile ago.. no sense of satisfaction though.. i only remembered bout them just now! how bad can my memory get..
yay attachment at IMH is over and i cant believe i quite like it after all.. hee.. but not like until i want to work there though! my patients are really adorable, esp this petite intelligent auntie.. i can see from her change in mental state tt medication really takes bout 2 weeks to take effect.. hee.. in e first week, she was very depressed and sorrowful and keep saying weird things like she is a cat and she keeps 2 cats in her drawer(much to my horror!!), after which she said they are soft toys and she laughed at me for not listening to e end of her story..diao..=/ then in e second week, she became slightly more cooperative, though still shouting when she cant get her way.. she even made a slight effort not to disrupt too much during e psychoeducation.. note: disruption was still present..hee.. and by e last 2 days of our attachment, she didnt say anything weird anymore and she became so easy to handle tt we all agreed she is indeed a changed person! wow.. she is reallly very cute....
i watched a bollywood movie! hee.. ok not sure if it's from bollywood la, but e setting is in mumbai! super cooool movie.. e movie is called slumdog millionaire.. i knew absolutely nothing bout this movie and only went in cuz gerk says it is nice.. firstly, e moment we stepped into e theatre, we heard tamil songs being played and i wondered if we r in e rite theatre?? and then i spotted some indians and further suspected so..hmm.. cuz yishun cinema does screen tamil movies wat! and to my horror, it is really an indian-casted show!! but it is in english la..(w no subtitles btw).. anyway, i really didnt expect e show to be so bollywood!! hee..i am very pleased w myself for watching such a bollywood show.. some more quite meaningful one ok..heehee..me gerk and xy came out of e cinema feeling very proud of ourselves for watching such a "got depth" show.. hee! and e mumbai girls are very very very pretty.. not kidding!! tsktsk.. they used 3 actresses for e same person who was ...
for the first time, i finally start to enjoy this posting.. e patients are quite adorable after all! anyway, i am pretty impressed w them during e anger management discussion today.. e leader asked a question, "do u get angry for no reason or do u know wat makes u angry?" everyone of them pondered for awhile and earnestly answered, yes they always know e reason why they are angry.. and i was sitting there and thinking, wow i don't even know y i am upset sometimes! (maybe i should get admitted..hmm) anyway, from then on my respect for them soared up.. i went sengkang swimming pool today w cynthia! e place is not bad wor.. there is an indoor pool for pple who like fair skin, and an outdoor pool for pple like me who like tan skin!! and they even have slides! i decided tt slides are dangerous cuz e bottom of my swimming costume get dislodged=/ as in e impact of e water when i splashed into e pool kind of pushes my costume in between my buttocks=/=/ ahhhhh.. maybe they should ...
ah i am quite sad tt i cant to genting=/ boohoo.. my mum say i can go anywhere but malaysia cuz e robbers there v fierce..diao.... she read too much news on robbers la.. if like tt say, then walking also can fall down wat.. RITE?? anyway, i got a bad haircut last week.. too short and i don like e shape=/ which explains y i pin my hair everyday so i look more lady-like..hee..and strangely, my nice warm brown hair colour disappeared along w my haircut leh..so my hair looks wu hei and shiny now.. i think can advertise for e jacky chan shampoo le=] hee.. i will get my brown colour back!!!!! hehehehe...
ah.. i realise how stupid i was for not s/u-ing my very first elective.. my brain must have been not working well at tt pt in time.. boo hoo.. oh ya i forgot to blog an overdue story..so here goes.. one fine evening, my family drove out to a shopping mall for dinner.. so we happily parked our car into a lot and went off.. to our horror, when we came back from shopping, we saw from afar tt our car was inside a handicapped lot!! and we were like,"ay..! how come our car is in a handicapped lot??" then i recalled why some passing car drivers kept staring at us while we were parking=/ so now i know where my blur genes came from.. i am indeed my parents' real child..heehee..
yay finally i can have a break from attachment! i went home tog w afif yesterday cuz he wanted to go tampines.. so, because of previous experiences w various pple at various times, ur-hum, i gave him a forewarning tt pple usually get lost when they travel w me.. w tt forewarning, i took it tt he is travelling w me willingly and at his own risk=D then we boarded bus 88 and attempted to alight at e 27 bus stop.. BUT, as u can guess, we alighted at e wrong bus stop..=/=/ and then while i was thinking of wat to do, to my horror, afif randomly waved for bus 87 and e next thing i knew, we were on e bus.. then i asked, u know where this bus goes? and he said, no ah, just take to e next bus stop lor.. oh my goodnessss.... and from then on, we attempted to follow all e road signs which pointed to TPE, hoping to find e correct bus stop, and walked...and walked..and WALKED......ah!!! why does this always happen to me?? boohoo.. finally, we walked past a pri sch and wanted to ask someone for direc...
i think mental illness is e scariest thing in world to get.. it can happen to just anyone.. and i don think e medicines are 100% effective.. and not to mention tt not all doctors are understanding and empathetic.. aft all they neva had mental illness and e patients are not their loved ones.. and i guess it is also not exactly an enjoyable thing for them to face e patients every day ba.. i am actually quite afraid tt i will get mental illness one day too.. if only there are medicines for mental illness like antibiotics.. i feel very depressed and pessimistic today..=/ partly cuz of e fear of getting mental illness, and partly cuz of a really shocking piece of news.. i guess there is nothing to do to stop mental illness from coming besides being optimistic? --e fearful pat=/
ah i feel like sleeping but i haven brought my mini for his walk yet.. talking bout tt, i don understand y there is so much food on e grounds of my park.. so much so tt my dog often picks up food before i could stop him=/ greedy boy.. last week he picked up a huge piece of fish bone with a long sharp rib jutting out and i almost fainted!! when we got home, we tried to tempt him w e new yr's biscuits but it didnt work=/ finally, when i was carrying him upstairs, his mouth couldnt hold on any longer and he dropped e bone!! thank God!! ok i gotta get going..
once again my mum has gone and tidy my room=/ i think i mention before tt i hate it when she does tt.. i get really angry and my blood BOILS when this happens!!!!! how can anyone tidy ur room for u?? u mean she knows how i want to organize my things and where i want to put them? all she does is put everything tog so tt it "appears neat".. but i don see e pt of looking neat when i dunno where my things are!! i rather my things are untidy but i have an idea where i can find them.. rite?????? let's say for example i have a bookmark tt i want to use so i leave it on e table where i can see it.. now she go and put it in bet some things and i'll prob forget bout it.. and when i finally recall and ask where my bookmark is, she'll say, "huh wat bookmark? see la anyhow put ur things now cannot find".. and then she'll say it is my own fault.. well, guess who's e one who last touched it??! i don misplace my own things and then put e blame on her ok.. sorry ...
just when i thot my family was going to have reunion dinner tog at a random kopitiam, i realised to my horror tt we are having it tog w our neighour's family!! here was how i realised at e last min: we were in e car setting off.. daddy: ay their car is still parked there leh.. me: huh, wat has tt got to do with us?? daddy: we are having dinner tog mah...... wo de tian ah.. ya we are on friendly terms with them, but of all our relatives, u choose to reunite w neighbours?? a bit weird rite!! then somemore i haven talked to e sons for at least 10 years.. and their mum was like, let e youngsters sit tog..=/=/ at tt moment, i thot i would rather talk to her than her sons!! but e dinner turned out well=]=] they are very nice to talk to aft all!!=] and did i mention they are really good-looking and athletic?? heehee.. before u think i am a se gui, i was not interested or shy at all ok.. they are younger than me!! (unfortunately=/) we were talking bout sch and of course i took e chance to ...
yay went swimming w celine today and got sunburnt on my back..which means it'll become a tan soon=] i like swimming more and more=] i think it's cuz of e feeling of gliding thru e water as well as e momentum..nice..=] anyway, celine was telling me how u can see sea creatures laying eggs in e deep sea if u go diving.. then she gave e eg of a squid and we were thinking if squids lay eggs or give birth..hmm.. then i thot, if they do give birth, wont it be a bit of a problem if e baby squids are in e breech(legs down) position?????! heehee.....=D i think i had quite a good week so far.. and our lecturer was super entertaining on e first day of our lecture! and i think swimming during e 3 hr break is a great way to spend e time.. there is enough time to travel, eat and swim without rushing.. and u feel tt e time is well-spent..come swim tog!!=] then i went clubbing w joey, cynthia, chi ching and cecilia also.. oh man they are sort of wild..heehee..only in terms of dancing la=]and i ...
it is quite nice to blog and surf e net after a long day.. i know i still have readings to read for tom lessons, but haiya, shall read during e never-ending mrt ride.. i realise tt sch's not as bad as i thot aft all.. at least i can still have lectures and lunch w ah gerk and xy on 4 days each week=]=] and my tut grp is not bad also la.. but i still dunno wat to make of my long break.. i can swim, provided pple want to swim w me.. otherwise i feel a bit awkward and vulnerable wearing my swimsuit and swimming on my own=/ but wat shall i do during e week of my period??? oh i know!! ask my tut grp to go vivo and shop! but then, how can we shop at e same place 2 to 3 times in a week?? i guess i shall swim til i become an athlete then..heehee..=]
i went for an outreach program on sat with my church on sat.. then my cell grp leader's fren said to him,"ay ur cell grp age range quite wide hor.. e gal there (me) looks at most 16"=/ hee.. but i have finally felt e bliss of looking young as i grow older!! yay..=] anyway, i am very tired.. e weekend has been very looooong.. my schedule was packed back to back and lasted from morn to night.. and i haven done my 2 weeks' worth of objectives yet!=/ oh man.. then i was taking a nap and drifting to sleep when this gal knocked on my door urgently and asked if her clothes dropped into my balcony=/ well, i think i didnt hide my grumpiness very well.. but at least i went to e balcony and looked for her clothes which were NOT there.. and after which i cannot sleep anymore! grrrrrrrr............ i am looking forward to e start of sch but scared at e same time.. i finally took a look at e timetable, and to my distaste, there are 3 hrs break in bet lessons!!!=[ did i mention tt i...
oh my goodness guess wat??! my bro finally added me on facebook!! ah!! and e main pt of the story is tt.....he has 100+ more frenz than me la!!!!!!!! my eyes almost popped out!! (don think eyes small cannot pop out ok) boohoo how come like tt?? i think i have to reflect upon my sociability=/ don u all dare laugh at him again hor.. hee..
argh i wanto go skating!! i admit for e past yr i dreaded skating cuz i really have no talent at all=/ however, after bout half a yr of break, i went skating again and realised maybe i have HOPE after all!! i kai qiao le!=] hee.. i wanto skate, i want to pei grace, i wanto see e skating pple......... but not yet..hai.. sha le wo ba!
anyway, i think i'll write to the ttsh HR to enquire bout how i can go to ttsh despite being bonded to cgh.. in other words, i am hinting for them to buy my bond! hee hee.. wat i want to say is, i really like ur hospital, can u pls buy my bond?? hee.. but of course i cant say tt rite=/ and even if they buy my bond, how am i going to pay e 10%? cuz i think when u break bond, u have to pay whatever they gave u plus 10%interest or something.. and e 10% will e paid by u, not e hospital.. i really don think my parents will be very happy to pay bout $3000++ leh.. well, i shall just enquire first and see how!
obs posting finally ended.. slacking is realllly very tiring.. after so many years, i had a 4 hrs nap again! for 2 days in e same week some more lor.. and i slept really soundly.. maybe i caught some sleeping thing from e babies..hee.. on this last day, a 2-weeks old baby gal started to open her eyes bigger.. and she looked into my eyes when i fed her..... bonding~ bonding~! i felt a motherly love gush out at tt moment.. (only for a moment..hee) she is sooo small-sized but i felt her desire to grow as she tried hard to suck as much milk as she can and sleep soundly otherwise..jiayou babieee!! i think i'll really miss e nursing pple when i graduate.. we have only how much time left tog=/ nvm i'll cherish whatever time left..
my pri sch frenz have been furiously adding one another on facebook for e past week.. i think cuz everyone is very super curious to see what their geeky classmates have turned into.. and there is going to be a pri sch outing soon where everyone is very enthu bout=/ half of me is looking forward to it, but e other half of me is terrified! i am scared tt it will be awkward.. but at least i have 2close pri sch frenz who i think will go, so shouldnt be tt bad.. and after looking at their facebook, i realised tt my class had quite a number of mei nu..hee.. but then, they were quite pretty since those days anyway.. my fren kept a secondary sch photo of me, another gal and herself where she looked cute (though geeky!), and where i look like either u will laugh and cannot stop, or u will want to box me=/ heehee.. i told her many times to burn it but she say it is too precious to be burnt.. GRR.. and she had to bring it one day and revive e awful memories of how i looked w e big oval golden fra...
i am blogging cuz i feel out of sorts..prob pms-ing=/ hai i haven even had time to go gym in e hols..can u imagine.. and tom is attachment already.. i hope orientation takes up half a day.. but then, doesnt tt mean i have to endure thru e whole orientation again?? i really dunno which is worse, a repeated orientation or going to e ward earlier..hai.. i just want to have a good sleep tonite and wake up w e pms gone..nite..
blessed new yr! i had my countdown at my church for e first time in my life and it was great! i like it=] so joyful to be able to thank God for e past yr and to pray for e yr ahead=] my church pple walk really fast though.. like rite aft e countdown, half e pple are gone.. hee hee.. i went for my fren ah grace's BRO's wedding dinner and gained for myself another loser story.. woohoo=/ and so e setting goes like this.. e MC has announced tt e bride and groom were about to come in and e lights dimmed.. i was standing near e aisle, and e guy beside me passed me a small basket of wat i thot looked like crackers.. then i thot, wa lao bride and groom coming in soon still offer me crackers ah.. but then he gave me a v friendly smile, hee, so i accepted e crackers and was wondering wat to do with it when my fren said, oh so nice he gave u to throw.. then i thot, throw wat? and i realised tt e 'crackers' are actually big flower petals......=/