end of week 1 at ttsh

ok first week of attachment is over.. have been going out every off day although i really should rest at home.. and e busy-ness will continue all e way till near new yr.. oh man..

i just want to lie down and watch tv for e whole day.. there are so many nice old serials on tv lor!! esp shuan tian zhi zun!! super excciting to watch..

i missed e star awards tonight and will prob miss e repeat also.. don care, will figure out how to use e dvd recorder so i can record down e repeat!!

i like my ward at ttsh.. approachable nurses, understanding patients and family.. it is nice to see so many visitors in e ward..

my preceptor neva scolded me or even give me a reproaching look even though i made alot of mistakes.. and e patients, seeing how inconfident i am, did not even scringe.. really thankful to them..

but my skills is totally cmi=/ whenever a nurse ask if i know how to do a skill, i have to sheepishly admit tt i learnt before but forgot..

and e next question they ask is, wat yr r u in? so i say, erm yr 2 sem 1.. then they will give a look tt says "u r way behind time.."

and i'll be alone tom.. no yy, no nic, no preceptor.. it's independence day! hee.. nvm la shall be thick-skinned and tag along w some nurse..

but i am really very sad tt my classmates seem to be quitting.. but i guess only they themselves know wat's best for themselves.. and i'm at a loss cuz i dunno how to encourage my friends, esp when i am not tt strong too..

i feel like banging my head on e wall whenever i cant even do a simple skill well, but have hope tt we'll achieve a level of competency one day..

i really want to be a competent nurse, a good role model and a good preceptor in future.... my future seems sort of bleak now, but well, "when facing difficulties, do not become bitter, instead become better."