failed my test!!

hello..i just found out i got F for pharmacology=[=[ i was quite shocked at first, cuz i expected like D? ya not much difference except one is pass and e other is fail rite.. i thot i must have not shaded hard enough or got some mistake which will neva be found out cuz they don return e papers.. aft all i did study for e test u know!! but aft i thot thru, hmm well, it is possible tt i really failed.. assuming tt F is below 50, and i only did enough questions to get 60+, and tt each wrong will minus 2 marks, isnt it likely tt i will fail? ok then it is easier for me to accept rather than think e MCQ machine made a mistake.. but still, i did study relatively hard for it and i understood this test topics more than any other subjects.. now i am quite inconfident of getting a scholarship..how am i supposed to answer e interviewers if they ask me bout my results? (if i am called for e interview..) well, i better go make my study schedule for e exams now!! stressed..

plus e fact tt i spent like $69 on e sch's bazaar!! e bazaar is so evil la, come and sell nice things which r so cheap and they have bazaar like every month??! if i ever get e scholarship, i am NOT going to splurge more then i do now.. maybe maintain will do..heehee.. i can find reasons to why i don deserve e scholarship, but i cant see why i do.. but i shall try anyway.. hopefully it will motivate me to study harder.. i am quite messed up now la.. basically i am happy in sch--seeing my frenz, eating macs, shopping at e bazaar.. but it does bother me tt i am not doing well, or rather, doing quite badly will be more truthful.. i suppose self-discipline is so super impt in uni.. seriously, i would have failed my A-levels if not for my physics tuition teacher and my F maths teachers who taught me well.. so wat bout now? ...